To My Madisyn:
Madisyn you are everything I had hoped for and more. When I held you in my arms for the first time, I just cried but please know they were tears of happiness. I always wanted a baby girl and I couldn't believe my eyes of how beautiful you were in my arms. When you would look back at me my heart would just flutter, I was proud to be picked by God to be your mommy.
Over the years you have grown up so much, that I just don't understand where my baby girl has gone. I lay in bed at night rethinking the past times of your growing up and it just hurts me so bad to see some of those memories fading. I am so glad to have pictures and videos of you, but I still want that fresh memory in my head. Madisyn I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, and never ever forget that. I will never leave you and will always be right there on your journey with you.
I cannot believe how grown up you talk these days, its like you grew up over night and turned into such a big girl. We really do have adult conversations on a daily basis when you ask your wondering mind questions, such as mommy why does porcupines have spikes? You amaze me with the attention and detail you give to drawings and are always saying what a happy family we are. You know what though, we are happy because you are such a great big sister and daughter. Those big brown eyes will light up a room and just show the amazement that comes out of your heart.
If you see tears in my eyes, you are right there giving me a hug and making sure I will smile before you leave to go play. If little sissy gets hurt, you are first one there with a bandaid and your doctor kit to make sure she is taken care of right away. Your heart is so big nobody could even attempt to measure it.
I feel like you have a special soul inside of you because you are always thinking of others and want to make sure they are good before you. At dinner time you make sure daddy and sissy have their drinks before you will even sit down. Just another example of how you put others first. I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL.
I wish I could pause time and keep you just where you are, but that would be very selfish of me as I know you are just beginning and you will knock the socks off of this world in years to come. God has a special task for you and you are just being prepped for it now. I cannot wait to see how your life turns out as I know I will be one proud mommy.
Remember mommy is always here for you and I pray we will always be close and share that special mommy and daughter bond.
I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL.
With my warmest heart,